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May. 6th, 2006 | 11:55 pm
mood: .... ....

i hate it when you have to live in the shaodw of someone els...
you try to please him by doing what he says....losing your freedom for his happiness...yet even then...you change a little. and your the worst person ever...they never see you the same way again....
you try to make it up...but, no...
your not the same anymore...
your not his little girl anymore...
your a girl who disobayed him...and who went against everything he stands for...
you tell him...to stop drinking that its bad for him...that he can never take just one beer or one alcoholic beverage and be fine...he abuses it.
but you tell him that...
and your a stupid girl who dosent know what shes saying..that shes being guided by someone elses ideas and morals.
you dont know shit...you dress differently...you look vile...im ashamed of you...
what wonderful words...
to say to your daughter.
im sorry that i cant live up...
to what you want me to be...
im sorry i cant be the spiting image of yourself.
im sorry...
im sorry....
im sorry for carying for you and your health.
im so sorry...
for being myself.

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now bend OVER!

May. 6th, 2006 | 12:04 pm
mood: not really...ahahahaa not really...ahahahaa


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May. 5th, 2006 | 03:35 pm
mood: blah blah

ok it feels really weird when you cry at school. i fucking hate it lol. i cried because i felt bad fro my classamtes because they had to run when i would be in florida having a good time lol. now that might sound weird to you guys tha are reading this....
heres how it goes....
our teacher said if we dressed in proper p.e clothes that we would get out of the run not next week but the next. so i was like, well..im not going to be here that week but i should dress for my friends ok so yesterday i let a "friend" (which isnt really a friend..more of an acuitenence) borrow my shorts and i wore my sweats. now she prmoised me she would bring back my fucking shorts the next day.
and what happens....
so i cant dress because i diddnt have my sweats or my shorts...and there was no loaners today.
what....the gay.
so i felt so bad, because i felt like i let my friends down...and i diddnt exactly have the best of days yesterday...so i cried.
and everyone was telling me that it was alright while..they screamed at the other "non-dressers" XD.
weird day.
oh and i think i flashed like 90% of my classmates...(i was wearing a mini-skirt...and it was windy as hell) HAHAHA.

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salon deja vu

May. 4th, 2006 | 10:39 pm
mood: lalalala <3 lalalala <3

being in a salon from 3pm to 10pm....is pretty exausting...lol.well i got a hair cut today. lots of layers....and on monday i will be getting my hair dyed. im pretty excited to get a new hair color. you guys will see the color when i come back and take pictures..you will either hate it or love it lol.
i hope you like it!.

ps: i had a paper due tomaorw...and i diddnt do it....


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swim..and homework

May. 2nd, 2006 | 10:59 pm
location: my computer niggas
mood: weeeee!! weeeee!!
music: the night air.

so thats basicly all i did today....invited my friend chey to my casa, went to walmart to buy groceries....went back to my casa...got on myspace to chek our messages and all that shiet...then went swimming in my pool...woohoo....had fun...then did some homework *cough* so i had this homework asinment(forgot how to spell..) i had to think of two or three songs that shaped my identity...i was like ok....sure...how the fuck am i going to fin a song...so i just picked songs that got close...so i found two from hocico and one rfom vnv nation...woohoo.
GAY. aisanmentwoeinrwoetb(stupid word.)
ps: i laughed like hell today. fun. yay..woohooo...=D


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OMG ^,^

Apr. 30th, 2006 | 05:33 pm
mood: yayayayayaya! yayayayayaya!

you can send text messages =D.
fakin awsome!
send me a text message friends!
oh and i changed my e-mail so. i finally verified my acount lmao.

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oh my....

Apr. 30th, 2006 | 05:14 pm
mood: =D weeee =D weeee

livejournal is so confusing lol. well firstly i cant go to my damn e-mail stupid fucktard wont work....everytime i try clicking on the damn e-mail...nothing happens! bah piece of meirda. so now i cant leave comments until i verify my acount XD which at this point i dont know when. because hotmail has a stick stuck up its ass and wont work.
so as soon as i get my LJ verified.
ill start leaving comments!

i love raze!

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